Thank you for enduring a long and tiring five years with me. You have no idea how much you have changed my life. No one has been able to stick around that long because no one can stand my attitude and my gruesome love life (that is if I have one).
All these years I have been in search for a companion, someone who would understand me, who would tag along whenever I felt like letting loose, who would try to keep up with me, who would stand up for me. I don’t know why I kept on searching, when that the one person I have been searching for is right in front of me, and is one phone call away.
You were there for me when I triumphed and when I failed, when I loved and stopped loving, when I was happy and when I was in pain, when I was laughing and crying… you were there whenever I would rant about realizing that she wasn’t “the one,” whenever I needed someone to hear my non sense stories. You were there for me, even at the time that I wasn’t there for you. I was too busy being the “prince charming” and “knight in shining armor” for someone else. Sorry. I used to feel weird whenever you got jealous of someone, I thought that it didn’t make sense; I made myself believe that it had no sense when in fact, it made perfect sense. It was more sensible that whatever excuse I had, more sensible than me saying, “You have to understand that I love her.” It’s a different love with you, one which can truly be unconditional.
Remember the time that I said you taught me how to be numb? It wasn’t numbness but strength, strength that I gain from being with you. It is as if I can endure insurmountable amounts of pain, as if I can be anyone and do anything. You’re the only one who can make me feel that way, because with you, I have no fears. I could even entrust my life to you.
I’m sorry that I wasn’t able to give you the time and attention you deserve. I’m sorry that I wasn’t able to express how much you mean to me. I hope I would still get the chance to.
I love you.
